I can barely contain myself.

I've been feeling overwhelmed lately.  Well not exactly lately but definitely more than usual.  Anyway, the last few days I've barely been able to control my feelings of upset, sadness, tearfulness, my compulsive behavior and my manic mood swings.  Also, I can't sleep.  I've been taking sleeping pills the last 3 nights just to get some rest. 

I need to plan a trip.  I always feel so much better when I'm visiting a new place.  Maybe Austin?  I've heard good things.

I must remind myself to breath.....deep breaths.  It really does help.

Ah yes...therapy. Today was my first day of group therapy just over at the local hospital. So for the next 14 weeks I will attending group every Monday afternoon.
I'm tired and I don't feel like saying much else. Sometimes sessions can leave you feeling exhausted and a bit overwhelmed. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I went. It's just right now I can't help but feel like curling up in a ball and going to sleep.

...the sun is out

I spent some time appreciating nature today.

I see light in the darkness.

I don't expect anyone to read this. This is more for me than for any prospective followers. The truth is I've crashed and I've burned, and since last summer I have dug myself out of a deep dark hole called depression and I'm learning to take better care of myself. Journeling is something my therapist strongly recommends. I've never been one to keep a journal or diary and I type quicker than I write so why not blog?


Hmmm....where do I begin? Like I said, I'm not accustomed to recording my thoughts and I find it very difficult but I know it's necessary. I guess I'm worried about feeling exposed. I've been hidden for so many years. Too many years and so much time spent existing in a haze or a daze, half-asleep. So now I've decided to wake myself up and discover who I am. To discover my purpose, the meaning of life [to me], my passions, my happiness and contentment. I think it's do-able :)

 I will try to write something every day. Even on those days that I feel down, or lazy, or uninspired. Even if it's just a sentence.


Jen